Hello Ppl...
My performance really sux... they audience(guests) treat us like some stupid monkey who are jumping ard on stage.. while they are beezee talking to each other n enjoying their alcoholic drink... aiyaa... train so hard n this is the outcome!!! if i know i wld never come for training!~~~~ n spend moer time wif my silat mates n reduce my smoking habit!!!!
Oh yah forget.. i promised a'az dat i'll type abt the day on my bro's death... i was sleeping in the living room as my grandpapa was here at that time n my bro needs a bed because he's werking n skooling so i dont mind sleeping in the living room wif juz a mattress... i was actually waiting for him as i wld like to talk to him abt sometink which i dont remember... coz it was already late so i slept.. and at ard 3 am... my parents woke me up n tell me dat they are going to the hospital to visit my bro coz my bro is involved in accident... so i was like.. "ok.. send my regards to abg..." n the look on my mom's face was totally different when she said insya Allah...
n then an hour later my grandmama woke me up n ask me questions like "where's ibu n ayah??" "did abg involve in an accident"... so i was like "yes n ayah n ibu is visiting him" n she was like "tell me the real thing wat has happened".. so i said "notink... he juz involve in an accident so dont worry insya Allah he will be ok".. but then she insisted on calling my auntie.. so i juz called n was answered by my cuz.. n then she ask me wat did i know... so i juz said dat my bro is involve in an accident... then wif a teary voice(u know the voice when ppl starts to cry)... "ADIK... ABG DAH TAKDE LAGI........... Tapi jgn blg nenek..." n werds like cant come out from my mouth... stunned n all in one... so i lied to my grandma n said dat he's alrite...
then while i was trying to close my eyes... suddenly tears come rolling out of my tears... i was wondering... y my parents ddint tell me?? my it have to be my cuz?? y i didnt get to see my own blood brother at the hospital??? n all that...
my aunt came to my house next.. n i was like hugging her n cried... n my cuz too... then i tried calming myself... n yeah i was smiling agin but deep inside only god knows... then ard 12++ my parents came back wif my "bro"... the moment i saw my mom i soclded her.. that was the most angry tone i ever done so far... i was like asking her all those question that have been bothering me juz now... all she can say is "i dont want u to worry.." wtf?? wat im i? stupid or wat???.. really pissed off...
but then the moment i see my bro lying there w/o any blood flow... my tears began to roll again.. i donno how many times i hug my dad wif my tears pouring down... n then frenz n relatives came... n then went to the cemetery.. that was the last time i saw my bro's face..
i hope He will be in peace... the last advice he gave to me was "Jgn Buat Ape Yg Adik Tau Abg Buat Yg Tak Baik..."
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